[CW: #self harm #illness #scars #body image and #ableist language and #ableism mentioned in the description. Also #trans headcanons #sdr2 spoilers and #long post ]

[image: a photo of a messy pencil drawing depicting Nagito Komaeda from SDR2. He is wearing boxers and a chest binder and holding up his left hand with his fingers curled and has a beaming expression on his face. He has a visible PICC line in his upper right arm and visible self harm scars. The drawing is framed by various art utensils.]

Im trying to draw every day, and this month happens to be #disabilityfest! 

Nagito is a canonically disabled character who I was immediately drawn to. He has stage three lymphoma (it is not specified what kind) and frontotemporal dementia. These are both stated to be terminal. He is also a trauma survivor.

The canon material handled his illness very poorly, with his diagnosis essentially being an easter egg and his behavior and character make him fall a little too neatly into the “villainous mentally ill character” trope for various reasons. His terminal illness is only hinted at in the story, and indication of his lymphoma is null. His mental illness is often written off as “he’s fucking crazy” or “he doesnt know any better”. Nagito himself is a very manipulative and scheming person and has used his illness as a crutch, even obfuscating insanity at some points for the sake of his goals. 

It’s not very often fans of the series rectify this, or portray him as canonically disabled while calling attention to the problematic nature of his actions and the inclusion/influence of his illness along with them. His actions are explainable, but not excusable, and I happen to love him anyways.

You can read more about lymphoma here and frontotemportal dementia here 

He has a PICC line in his upper arm, which is a permanent fixture for administering medication (in this case, chemotherapy) to the artery. You can read more about it here Neither this, his self harm scars, or his being a trans boy are canon. 

I sincerely apologize for and will do anything to rectify any mistakes regarding his illness made in my drawing or description. I am mentally ill and autistic, but I have able bodied privilege and in our quest to end disability ignorance will gladly admit my own. Please call me out if I’ve said anything problematic.

As for the sketch, it only took about 10-15 minutes. Drawing loosely, with a thicker/darker pencil and with confidence is a great way to get out of some bad unconfident line habits as it forces you to be precise and think about the shapes and flow of the image. Do recommend, even if a dark 7mm lead SMUDGES ALL OVER. Even if it turns out terrible, it’s a great practice exercise and very relaxing. Learn more here

[CW: #self harm #illness #scars #body image and #ableist language and #ableism mentioned in the description. Also #trans headcanons #sdr2 spoilers and #long post ]

[image: a photo of a messy pencil drawing depicting Nagito Komaeda from SDR2. He is wearing boxers and a chest binder and holding up his left hand with his fingers curled and has a beaming expression on his face. He has a visible PICC line in his upper right arm and visible self harm scars. The drawing is framed by various art utensils.]

Im trying to draw every day, and this month happens to be #disabilityfest!

Nagito is a canonically disabled character who I was immediately drawn to. He has stage three lymphoma (it is not specified what kind) and frontotemporal dementia. These are both stated to be terminal. He is also a trauma survivor.

The canon material handled his illness very poorly, with his diagnosis essentially being an easter egg and his behavior and character make him fall a little too neatly into the “villainous mentally ill character” trope for various reasons. His terminal illness is only hinted at in the story, and indication of his lymphoma is null. His mental illness is often written off as “he’s fucking crazy” or “he doesnt know any better”. Nagito himself is a very manipulative and scheming person and has used his illness as a crutch, even obfuscating insanity at some points for the sake of his goals.

It’s not very often fans of the series rectify this, or portray him as canonically disabled while calling attention to the problematic nature of his actions and the inclusion/influence of his illness along with them. His actions are explainable, but not excusable, and I happen to love him anyways.

You can read more about lymphoma here and frontotemportal dementia here

He has a PICC line in his upper arm, which is a permanent fixture for administering medication (in this case, chemotherapy) to the artery. You can read more about it here Neither this, his self harm scars, or his being a trans boy are canon.

I sincerely apologize for and will do anything to rectify any mistakes regarding his illness made in my drawing or description. I am mentally ill and autistic, but I have able bodied privilege and in our quest to end disability ignorance will gladly admit my own. Please call me out if I’ve said anything problematic.

As for the sketch, it only took about 10-15 minutes. Drawing loosely, with a thicker/darker pencil and with confidence is a great way to get out of some bad unconfident line habits as it forces you to be precise and think about the shapes and flow of the image. Do recommend, even if a dark 7mm lead SMUDGES ALL OVER. Even if it turns out terrible, it’s a great practice exercise and very relaxing. Learn more here

I took these last night~ Rainbow flag, asexual flag, and aporagender flag! since then, I’ve made chokers and bracelets with the pan- and bi- flags and a very plain rainbow choker. My next goals are the cupio- flag (that’s mine, yay!), the requei- flag, the akoi- flag, the nonbinary flag and the recip- flag!

Any non-t.ruscum questions/comments/suggestions, feel free!

aceworu and I have an AU set post-Sadamoto manga where Karl is reborn as a Lilin boy who comes to live in foster care with Shinji Ikari. I call him Karlilin. He’s just an ordinary 15 year old Japanese boy, albeit more of a little shit than most and with a nasty smoking habit and a criminal record and the obligatory mysterious past. Compared to his last incarnation? Painfully ordinary. 

First time using copics in three years oops.

Couldn’t decide which pic to post so here’s three lol

I’ll scan later

I have a post-manga Karl who is purely Lilin and a complete little shit and I love him.

I haven’t used copics in three years

Awful picture but I needed to share my entry for our clay pot decorating contest at work! 

Floral dryfoam, model magic, acrylic paint, mod podge, E6000, smoothfoam 4” ball, a wooden dowel cut and whittled into a point, and some unfortunate leaves I found on the floor of our floral aisle. I bought a foam cutter just for this. You can’t use a dremel or power saw on foam because it’ll melt and stick to the blade from the friction and make everyone extremely unhappy as I found out a few years ago, haha.

Awful picture but I needed to share my entry for our clay pot decorating contest at work!

Floral dryfoam, model magic, acrylic paint, mod podge, E6000, smoothfoam 4” ball, a wooden dowel cut and whittled into a point, and some unfortunate leaves I found on the floor of our floral aisle. I bought a foam cutter just for this. You can’t use a dremel or power saw on foam because it’ll melt and stick to the blade from the friction and make everyone extremely unhappy as I found out a few years ago, haha.

Talk to someone casually about serious issues involving terminal illness and mortality while continuing to attempt to ink a little Karlilin shit. Took a break for McDonalds. All in all, a pretty typical night for me!

Talk to someone casually about serious issues involving terminal illness and mortality while continuing to attempt to ink a little Karlilin shit. Took a break for McDonalds. All in all, a pretty typical night for me!

Here it is without the instagram note grabbing bullshit lmao

Here it is without the instagram note grabbing bullshit lmao

Leaf from Pokemon, by request!

Leaf from Pokemon, by request!

Pencil drawing at a slight angle with a filter and the pencils I used to draw it. Can I have notes now?

He gets more piercings later on, hell yeah.

Pencil drawing at a slight angle with a filter and the pencils I used to draw it. Can I have notes now?

He gets more piercings later on, hell yeah.

Who even are these fuckin nerds TAKE TWO

Who even are these fuckin nerds TAKE TWO